Structure and Open

   This week was frustrating. Without the structure of set class times, I did very little actual Kung Fu. One hundred percent on me! I had every opportunity but just didn't. And now I am regretting my choices. I had eleven days to work on a mountain of things that need work, but I chose to use crappy excuses to not to instead. The only positive was I did manage to add one move to my weapon technique, so a small victory there I guess. 

   On a positive note, I finally committed to one-on-ones! After a few parents and kids asking me if I did one-on-ones, I finally ran out of excuses as to why I didn't and committed some time to doing them. This might be a humbling path to go down but I am excited to see where it leads my Kung Fu. Now to hang my "open" sign out and who comes through the door. 

   

 P/up - 6682

S/up - 6610

Spar - 70 min

1609 km -236.41 km

Aok - 185 recorded

Hand form - 50

Weapon form - 75

 Mastery - 4

Gems

   Chances, opportunities, whatever you want to call it, are few and far between. Once they are gone, poof, they are gone. I had an opportunity to sit in on a conversation the other day. I almost didn't though, thought I would get more done with my day if I skipped it and just carried on muddling around. What a monumental mistake that would have been. I can't go into too many details because I am still processing the massive gem this laid in my lap. I can summarize but even that won't do it justice, I just don't have the words to properly relay it to others let alone myself yet.

So here we go........ ready??

   I have been mulling over an interview I watched with the actor Michael Caine. In it he was asked about his early days of acting and the hurdles he had to overcome. What his reply was hit true to me. He said "use the difficulty". At first I was a little baffled, it can't be that simple, can it?? So I listened to it again and it just made so much sense to me. What a great philosophy to live by.

    And then there was the conversation I had the opportunity to sit in on. Here it is..."let the style fill in the gaps". It was like two freight trains smashed into each other in my head, pieces of logic and insight scattered everywhere. Now I have to collect them and make use of them.

    So if I am struggling with a move because of whatever difficulty (real or imaginary) is in my way, can I just use that difficulty and let the style fill in the gaps. Is it that simple? I really hope so cause this might be game changing. There are so many layers on this onion to peel back, I know it is not that easy but I am excited to apply that to my training.

    So anyway, opportunities and chances, do not pass them up cause this one has blown my mind.

 

 P/up - 5832

S/up - 5760

Spar - 60 min

1609 km -252.33km

Aok - 170 recorded

Hand form - 45

Weapon form - 65

 Mastery - 3

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Pushin the Numbers to Keep Sane

    Pad my numbers. I know the reasoning behind it, injury, lack of opportunities, life's little obstacles, but it is hard to do sometimes. Padding numbers at work can be dangerous, acid from batteries on the floor, broken glass from windshields, you know, hazards. Plus we have been unnecessarily busy at work with the owners latest "Project". My staff is constantly being pulled away from their actual job to cater to the whims of the owner of the business, forcing me to do their jobs instead of mine and I am powerless to do anything about it because in his opinion (and he has told me this!), working in parts is easy, anyone can do it. It is incredibly frustrating, and it affects me outside of work and that frustrates me even more. It is a cycle that is hard to break because I know it will all begin again Monday morning, grrrrr. 

   But... I am comfortable there because and I am 9 minutes from my home so travel is easy (I get to see my Pup everyday for lunch!), the hours are ideal for me to help out at Kung Fu (6:30ish am to 3:30ish pm) and like it or not, I have been there 24 years and I am only a few years away from semi-retirement (I hope). So making a change in career right now isn't really worth it. 

   So this brings up Mastery. I used to be proud of my pristinely organized parts department. Inventory every year was bang on, shelves were clean and meticulously organized, my staff tried their best to uphold my standard. Now with our daily, no scratch that, hourly interruptions in our jobs, that is gone. Not just from them, but from me as well. I have tried to talk to my boss (Tom) about it and he freely admits he is powerless as well but understands my frustration. I count that as a minor victory, VERY minor.

   Unfortunately this has snaked its way into my Kung Fu. I find myself "good enough-ing" many many things. Proof to me was my Beta forms and my acceptance of "Meh - that will do". What the Hell!! And that made me even madder at myself. That is not who I want to be. 

   So that brings me all the way back around to my numbers. I think channeling my frustration into upping my numbers is something I can control (at home) for now, going back to the basic requirements of the IHC that I commited too could very well be the key for me to get through this poop storm I am currently trying to navigate. Reconnecting by disconnecting if you will. 

   Thanks for letting me rant.... and here are my no-padded numbers.

 P/up -4907

S/up -4845

Spar -35

1609 km -213.41km

Aok -145

Hand form - 35

Weapon form - 60

 Mastery -2

Beta

 I usually only do posts on Sunday mornings. It’s kinda a thing with me. It’s usually the only time I touch a computer at home. But I’ll do a quick one about my Beta form tonight. 

It went well. Not perfect, not good, but well. I had concerns about my shoulder and hip/knee holding me back but thanks to some great physio and an awesome massage it wasn’t to bad. I missed some transitions between moves, I hesitated to do a couple of move cause they just weren’t there yet,  but all in all not terrible. Naked skeleton, that’s what I’ll call it. Now to put sone meat on the bones. 

Why Am I Here?

    That was the question asked by Sifu Rybak. My answer could turn into an epic story but I will summarize it in eight words, "because it is where I need to be".

   Sounds simple but let me shed a little light on that (sorry, I lied, it is much more that eight words).

   Kung Fu grounds me. It is a constant reset of my values and intentions. It is an ever expanding bubble of positive influence, centering at the Kwoon and expanding outwards with me every where I go. When I find  have gone to the edges of that influence, it allows me to push just a little bit beyond it without rupturing. Kung Fu allows me the privilege of confidence, the exultation of inner peace, and the ability to live and love without fear. It challenges me, it holds me accountable to my actions, it shows me the "way" without forcing me to follow. It is the cornerstone in who I am and who I strive to be.

   So as you can see, those eight words, "because it is where I need to be", summarize an epic novel that is my life.

P/up - 4082

S/up - 4020

Spar - 30

1609 km - 174.19

Aok - 133

Hand form - 25

Weapon form - 52

 Mastery -1

Inspire Through Actions

   Do as I say, not as I do. Probably the worst way to inspire someone into action. I say this because I got a glowing example of this this previous week. I don't remember the exact day or what class but here is the scene. 

   During class warmup, whomever was at the front leading the warm up (sorry - don't remember who it was) was getting the class to do some push ups. The instructor was doing push ups with them but some were only putting in, at best, half an effort. In jumps Master Brinker in the last row and starts blasting out push ups like a man possessed. The look on the kids faces was priceless! And their effort increased ten fold!! That was leading by example right there! It even woke me up and I jumped in as well, showing me I was not participating at a Black Belt level. My bad, lesson learned.

    So how can I expect fellow students to listen to me and give it their all if I don't? How can I give half an effort but expect others around me to step up and give it 100%? 

   Anyways, it always amazes me where and when lessons suddenly appear as if by cosmic necessity, showing me that I am slipping into mediocrity without even knowing it. Awesome...

P/up - 3292

S/up - 3260

Spar - 20

1609 km - 133.45

Aok -  125

Hand form - 19

Weapon form - 42 (beta close - I think) 

 Mastery - 1