Open Training

    The things you learn, Sometimes out of the blue, wham, a lesson flies in and slaps you in the ego. This happened at open training yesterday. Ahh open training, the keeper of unexpected treasures. Boy am I glad I was there cause this opportunity was possibly game changing for me. 

   It was so simple, a fellow student (I must admit I don't know her name - my bad) showed up for her first ever open training. She stood at the back of the hall, no idea what open training was all about, lost. Well not on my watch, no sir! I b-lined it to her, brought her in and the rest is pure magic. She asked all sorts of question, about the hall, about the alter, and about Lao Gar. 

   Lao Gar. My forms. I have lost my confidence in my forms. I know the forms but I also know that my forms need a ton of work. This is hard to admit but I am actually embarrassed to do my forms in front of people now. Just thinking about it raises my anxiety to near critical. But she asked me about Lao Gar and I wasn't about to walk away from a fellow student in need. 

   All she new about Lao Gar she learned on the Livesteam classes we have. Hard way to learn a form like that so I got her to show me what she knew. She knew some of the basics, so I had something to work with. We proceeded to break the form down step by step till we got to the end of  #1. By the end of open training she was doing most of Lao Gar 1 by herself (insert high five here!). 

   Then she asked me something that immediately sent my blood pressure through the roof, could she video me doing the form so she could practice at home. Yikes! Suddenly all my anxiety came crashing back upon me. To say I was having a major internal conflict would be an understatement. But I did it anyways. Deep breath, wuxin, focus andddddd go. 

   It felt good, smooth, and hopefully that is the way it came across in the video (I didn't want to watch it). 

   So my lesson for myself is this, just do it, stop talking about, stop thinking about it, just go. It doesn't really matter what others think and see, what matters if what I think and feel. 

   Thank you open training for the free lesson.