Blame

   Frustration, apathy, anger, distrust, defeat, sadness. All very negative thoughts, all very negative feelings. Almost everyone will have them creep into their lives at one time or another for reasons they may or may not understand. I find a couple of these creeping into my thoughts as of late. I don't like it.
   As I get older and more experienced in life, I start to see things in life that really disturb me. One of the biggest ideals that are bothering me the most at this moment is the way mankind tends to treat each other. Anger, judgement, condemnation, ridicule, apathy.
   This stems from something that happened to me yesterday at Costco. Nothing crazy, nothing that doesn't happen everyday. We were standing in line to pay and the cashier and her assistant were just doing their jobs, being friendly, chatting. For some unknown reason, it drove me crazy. All I wanted was to buy my stuff and get out of there, don't talk to me, don't make pleasantries, just do your job and let me go.
   Really Don, what is the matter with you?! All these fine young people were doing was being themselves, open and friendly, and I should have drank that up and thanked them for being rays of happiness in a world full of black holes. Instead I grunted, took our stuff and left. Again, what is the matter with me?
   I could blame many things, social media, the weather, lack of sleep, the anniversary of the passing of my father, work, so many things to blame. How about I blame the one thing that I can change,I can blame myself. There is the true culprit.  There is the real reason and solution in all this. Me. If I am not willing to encourage the light and fight the dark, I am part of the problem. I don't want to be part of the problem. I want to be part of the solution.
   So I have looked inward, I have turned my eye upon myself, I will try my best to be a ray of light and not a shadow because the shadow hurts and the light heals.

Time to go do some good, Thanks.