Balance

    I can see what I want to do, I can think about how to do it, I can visualize it in my mind, I see it is possible to do by watching other people achieve my objective, so why can't I convince myself to do it? That is a tough one to swallow. Is it my spirit, my intent, my dedication to mastery, my ego, am I just dabbling instead of taking positive consistent action? 

   I am asking some tough questions of myself lately. I feel like I am standing on the first step of a divergence in my martial arts training and lifestyle. To often I am given golden nuggets of advice that I don't take to heart. I just acknowledge them and move on. Excuse after excuse pull me away from what I know will benefit me emencly. And this is nothing new in my life, I have a history of doing this. And now I have a significant genetic/lifestyle health issue that has forced it's way into the equation. 

   The "superman" ideal that I have lived by for the past fifty-two years has not served me as well as I thought it had. Ego and complacency have not served me well either. I need to take control now because later is sooner than I thought. And that scares the crap out of me.

   This is my boat to steer, I am in charge of my own problems. I will and have started making the changes that I need to. I have consulted my physician, I have started to amass more and more information as to the changes I need to make, now to stop dragging my feet and wake up.

   As I finish this abbreviated blog, I am going to take the dog for a walk and enjoy the beautiful morning that Mother Nature has blessed me with. Savor, enjoy, balance, repeat. 

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