I am sitting here this morning trying to decide what I want to blog about. I actually have several things on my mind and a bunch of things I am working on, but I really don't feel like blogging about any of it. Sometimes, like now, I just don't feel like sharing. This isn't meant to sound dark or foreboding, I just don't want to put out something negative when it really isn't, it's just "in progress". I am trying my hardest to turn a dark or negative "whatever" into something that isn't. This is just my squishy monkey brain over thinking things that have either been said to me personally or unjustified criticisms that I have witnessed others receive. It is also about my actions over the past while, I have noticed a disturbing trend in my thoughts towards others, and that has to stop.
Maybe I am being too sensitive or critical, maybe not, that is what I am going to have to figure out on my own. Everyone is allowed to have an opinion, I just want mine to be a positive one, not dictated by others who are trying to impose themselves on me.
So I am going to go lose myself in some Tai Chi and physical activity, enjoy being in the moment, as this usually seems to guide me through my thoughts.
Sorry for the miserable blog, just wanted to share about not sharing.
Fair enough. The fact that you’re identifying this and working towards resolution instead of just wallowing in it is a huge deal. Your non blog blog is actually very powerful because of that.
ReplyDeleteIt is our nature to take things personally and to have strong emotions. What you need to do now is ask yourself what (or who) is this journey for? Nothing in life is perfect - but a bumpy road is better than no road.
ReplyDeleteIt's NOT a "miserable blog". Thought you were trying to be more positive :-D I'm sure many of us have times like that. Thank you for putting it out there so that we don't feel alone in this.
ReplyDeleteI always find that doing some Kung Fu puts me in a better mood as well.
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