It's Monday, not Sunday. Reason I bring this up? I usually write my blog on Sunday mornings, no exceptions, but yesterday was Christmas day, and like usual on that special day, it was go go go all day long. As much fun as I had yesterday with all my family, not blogging yesterday left me feeling incomplete, my mind couldn't rest, my week wasn't over, my Sunday reset and reflection on the week was left open. So my reset in now, Monday morning, it may be a day late but I feel a great relief inside that I sorely need.
My focus has been all over the map lately, and not getting my Sunday reset exasperated it. My daily plan/routine has been chaotic, no focus, no agenda, just training randomly. I didn't realize how bad this had gotten until last night. It was like a voice inside me was waving it's arms and shouting "Hey, dumb dumb, you forgot about me". And it was right. I had a routine that was really working for me, I was up early, Tai Chi 1-4, one other form slow with purpose (usually Lao Gar), stretching, push ups and sit ups. Only took half and hours or so, started my day off right.
Then I slipped, first one foot off the path, then the other. Now I am heading who knows where, cause I sure don't. I have no morning routine, only excuses. And I have been denying it, saying "just today, give my body a break", then it is two days, then five. Luckily(?) I was journaling everything, and that was devastating, cause there it is, in all it's ugliness. December is basically a write off. Sporadically written logs here and there, vain attempts to regain momentum. I am buried in excuses. I am drowning in mediocrity.
But this reset feels like a pointy toed kick in the butt. I have been told to ease up on the thinking about it and focus more on the doing it. Knowledge versus skill. So away I go, first step back on my path, then the next.....
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