A little more clear but no less muddy

   Already this year has a different feel than last year. Last year was my first attempt at the I Ho Chuan program. While it wasn't a complete failure it also wasn't a complete success. I missed the set goal on some mandatory numbers as well as there were a couple of personal requirements that I didn't complete. I could throw out all sorts of excuses but in the end it is all on me.

   This year I already have a better "feel" for the whats, whys, hows, etc than last year. I have made a much more organized start to my numbers, and my personal requirements are less of a "dream" and much more achievable. I'm more excited for this year and much less nervous than I was last year as I now know that this is doable if I follow the program and commit to achieving success in all I wish to accomplish. Not to sound to much like a cheerleader but this program is there for US. It is there to help us. It is there to encourage us and challenge us. It is there to help us shake off mediocrity and propel us towards mastery. If it was easy, we would never be challenged to examine who we really are. My only regret is that I waited so long to take part in the I Ho Chuan.

   I am a little anxious about 2 things. The "forms". I have chosen the Tonfa as a weapon and Lao Gar as my form.

   I have never imagined making my own form (tonfa) and this has me freaking out a little. I have an idea what I would like to do ( sort of ) but every time I start to piece it together, titanic failure. I am getting some great advice already from my fellow classmates and for this I am very grateful ( thanks everyone ). I know I have plenty of time before the "beta" version needs to be done but I also know that that time can disappear in a heartbeat. Time to get serious about locking this down, "gulp".

   Lao Gar (I hope I am spelling this right ). I have always loved watching various Sifus do this form. Everyone of them does it the same but entirely different. One Sifu does it with a ferocity that is downright scary, then the next flows so smoothly that it looks almost dreamlike. I love this! I know it is a long form and a different style that what we are used to and that is what excites me the most. I don't know which way I will flow on this yet but I am intrigued to see where it takes me. Thank you to all those helping me learn this form, it is giving me huge insight on so many things.

   Enough for this blog, time for number number crushing.